How to make a person understand me?

Seriously, i don't know how to? Perhaps, i'm weak in this.. I'm really very useless, failure gonna-be. Rotting at home today i guess. In the early noon, have lunch and watched 'Yes, i can see dead person'.
Not a really nice movie though, as the ending doesn't have any link. But, its scary.
I don't have anything much to update today, sorry for this boring post.
Still considering whether should i take up private N's? Yes, or No? Am really stressing alot. God damn it, i hope i can die soon, yes soon..

Do as you promised to, if not you won't fucking know whatthehell's happening to me.
I hate to be alone, as you know what i'll do..
Dead and gone.. Bye.